So I just arrived at Auckland yesterday and wow it was so green. I really missed the greeness and clear skies, especially with all the bushfires happening in Melbourne. Hahah I also found the kiwi accent really strong now. I never used to notice it that much last time I was here but damn it’s like a ‘ping’ whenever they talk especially the ‘e’s. But I suppose I’ll get used to it. Heck, I’m starting to speak like them already. Even the customs person said that I totally lost my filipino accent. LOL but I don’t think so, I still sometimes have that roll in the r’s

Aaaanyway, I’m now staying at my auntie’s house. Well it’s either I stay at their place and get a car or get a flat. While I really really wanna live alone and not to mention I’m pretty used to it, I need a car. Public transport here sucks ass. So much more worse than Melbourne. I’m really missing melb now ;_;

First day at uni today and more new strangers to meet. I’m getting pretty used to this whole moving around and about thing. I remember having 2 primaries, tho not including phils since i don’t remember there at all….., 2 intermediates and 2 high schools. And now 2 universities?? Hahah

Lol I kinda got a bit lost looking for the rooms but managed to make my first friend at this uni yay while we try to get to the room on time. Thank god the place was filled with heaps of helpful staff. The lecturer was American ahhah but her voice didn’t annoy me as much as I thought it would. It was a bit better than my old one since we drew heaps! It was all sketching and drawings and stuff.

Everyone was pretty chill.. I kinda miss the guys’ jokes and immatureness from my old uni but who knows it’s only the first day. But I have a feeling it’s gunna be srs business. Well as serious as architecture gets. Guys look pretty average, I dunno, I didn’t really paid much attention to them surprisingly. Okay, that’s not really a pure lie. It’s just this one super hot guy and then the others just… others hahah. I actually saw him before I got lost but didn’t think he’d be in the same class. And of course he was flaunted by girls when he got in =_= why do I find those sort of guys hot. So he got plentiful of stares from me, dunno if he noticed lol. I hope I wasn’t too creepy, I was just trying to figure out who he looks like. Now I swear he looks like Chad Michael Murray but with much manry-er and sharper looks. Lol but then again my visual memory isn’t perfect hahah. Anyway, we had to split into four groups and wow.. he was in my group lol so I managed to get his name. Now I can start stalking rofl right. Anyway, but I’m already slashing him with the euro guy next to him. Such a gay world.

Welll, we have gotten loads of new assignments already D: And I spent the whole day at uni, shops, bus, distracted by little cousins, reorganising my room and unpacking. And now before I knew it I’m typing this at 12:30am. Way past my supposedly bed time. I can’t believe I have to wake up at 6am and I haven’t done any of the assignments. What happened to my no slacking off! Okay, no slacking off.. I shall plan and do half of the assignments now before I go to sleep. O yay think I’ll get used to less than 4 hours sleep a day.

Well ranting on here rather than LJ is different… I feel like going back there just to rant about uni stuff for the nostalgia but I love my blog too much.

Ahhh! I gave in! I said I wasn’t going to read it since I’m so busy with everything else AND it is not even finished nor have much chapters to read. But I did. I’m such a sucker for Takeshi Obata’s art plus the story sounds good to me.

And I can see the so obvious BL-implied pairing. They way they interact with each other is so damn cute. I do wonder where and how the story will go. I really like how the plot is going and I get to learn about the manga world that I’m so ignorant of. Not that I will become a manga-ka.

The gay couple

Anyway, I’m so into this. Now that I’ve read it I’ll need to wait agonising weeks until the next chapter comes out. My oh so favourite part- waiting -_-.

Getting high is all it’s cracked up to be. This time I really got smoked some. And it felt GOOD. Just the experience of it is just interesting. I wasn’t so sure at the start because I began thinking about what if I’d look so stupid? What if I’d DO something stupid? What if we can’t get home tonight? What if something else bad happens? To be dramatic, I’d like to say I was hyperventilating but I wasn’t actually. I’m exaggerating a little but I do have to say that I did think of what I was doing but I’m curious laid-back as hell to care shit.

I’m not very good with words, I know that, so it’s hard to explain. It took quite some time to start working on me. I first thought that I was taking it wrong since nothing felt different. I guess I wasn’t in the right mood in the first place but still. Some time later I could feel something in my throat. It was weird, a bit uncomfortable but I really did not care at that time.

It felt like I was dreaming, yet I can control myself. I wanted to do silly things. I thought about just jumping around. Maybe do some of those ninja shit and see how that would turn out. I even thought about jumping off the balcony, which is kinda high, just to see if I can survive. Not a good idea. But I wasn’t high enough to do anything. Either I’m just a really calm person or I have a strong immune system.

Then my sight seems wider. Like I can see more. I don’t know, maybe not really. Or either things were just meshing up together as my eyes wander.

I was pretty hungry soon and we ate some pods and damn it tasted soooo good. I dunno if it’s just me but I reckon it was the best thing I’ve eaten. My friend said I’d get really hungry and eat a lot when I get high. But it wasn’t really that, it’s more like I just want to eat because it tasted good.

After some mucking around and I checked up myself with the mirror in the loo. Dark bags were really showing and my bloodshot eyes did not help. I splashed some water on my face to clean up, not that it made much difference. We decided not to take too much and to go soon since we do have to get back and go to school the next day.

I gotta admit, I got paranoid when we went out. I swear I saw the cars coming straight for me. As if they were going faster just to hit me. And then waiting for the train was weird. I began thinking of things that I wouldn’t usually think of. It was pretty annoying but I couldn’t help it.

Time goes by so very slowly, but after it has passed I thought it went too fast. I could feel anxiety, nervousness and excitement? thrill? I don’t know.

One of the strangest things I believed then was that my friends were mocking me. They would start talking and then stop. I looked at the time. They would start talking again about something else random. I started to think what they said before was just my imagination. Looked at the time again and it was the same minute. They kept doing it. After a while time was going but yet stopping.My mental state then wasn’t exactly reliable. Not that it ever is but it was not up to usual standard.

My skin felt quite sensitive. Usually I can handle the cold really well. Like, even if it was freezing cold and I feel it, it wouldn’t bother me at all. Especially since I love the coolness even icy feeling all around me. But at that time, I was fucking shivering! I wanted nothing but a space heater. I thought to myself that I shouldn’t feel that cold but yet I can’t help it.

I don’t know. Everything seems to contradict.

But I cannot wait until next time. Maybe it was the dreamy state? Whatever it was I wanna do it again. I wish I can get a hold of some myself and do it whenever. But I do have self-control. I won’t do anything stupid.